Cute Boy

Oh, Cute boy from Calgary why won't you come visit me!

It is true, I am still hung up on the same guy from Calgary I was like two months ago (refer to some post about slutty musicians). I never thought that things could get so complicated with someone who lives in a different province, but it really has. It's become its own little relationship, except with no boundries, no commitments, and I can't see him easily.

And it's not like we havn't tried. I was supposed to be there in like a week for a show with Theresa. He was going to get to come see me play, and I was going to go with him to his show after. Then he was also supposed to be in Saskatoon on New Years for a show, and it ended up falling through. We were both pretty dissapointed about it, or at least I was. And now he's supposed to be in Regina on the 15th and 16th of December, but that might fall through now too. And then there's always the talk of him coming to Saskatoon... which never seems to work out.

It never really seems to work out though. And we havn't gotten a whole lot of time to talk lately, although it still feels like there is some sort of relationship developing. It's rather confusing actually. Every time I'm even attracted to someone, or would consider a hookup or something dumb like that I think of him. I have no idea if he sleeps with other girls, and I have no idea what he really thinks of this "relationship". All I know is that he genuinley likes me, and I feel the same about him, but neither of us are willing to hop a train to eachothers respectives cities either. I almost think its out of our hands now.

Anyway, I've found the cure to my sleepness nights. If you are having trouble with the same thing, ask and I shall tell... but it rhymes with marijuana... uhhh I mean Ouija board. Time for bed!

song of the day: Boston- Augustana