Back To Life

I just saw the new Zach Braff movie, The Last Kiss. To sum it up in one sentence I would say it is about a guy who freaks out about life, cheats on his pregnant girlfriend, and then the shit hits the fan. It was great because it was one of those movies that you can get really involved in and forget about everything else that is going on in your life. The characters were real, and the story was real. The movie did a really good job illustrating that life is not perfect. It was also the perfect end to a day of doing nothing but sitting around and watching movies.

It seems that when I want to forget about things that confuse me I either sleep or watch movies. Today was movies. Three of them, plus an episode of Criminal Minds and CSI: New York. Pretty pathetic considering my life is actually pretty awesome. But it seems that sometimes it can get uncomfortable no matter how comfortable it seems to be.

I got in a fight with my roommate Brett the other night. It was horrible and I don't think I have ever been more hurt or upset (or pissed off) by anyone. He is a good friend, and it seems that he doesn't really respect me or trust me. This is hard to deal with. I needed to escape it. I'm still too angry to confront him right now.

I also sent an email out today. It was a little lame because it was an email, but he lives in Regina and it seemed to wierd to call him to ask him one specific, completley loaded question. Now this person for sure knows how I feel about them, and if I ever get a response back I will know how he feels about me too. It really isn't a big deal, and I'm not bent out of shape by this, it would just be nice to have closure either way. I don't like bullshit, and I hope he is honest with me.

I guess the whole point of this was to just remind myself that no matter how movies you watch, how much you get into the character's own little drama, you still will always have to go back to your own as soon as the credits start rolling. This is, unfortunatley, very disapointing. I must say that right about now I would much rather be curled up on a couch with Zach Braff's character than have to confront my roommate, and possibly face rejection in the form of an email. But life is life. You deal with it. It's not perfect. And if it were comfortable all the time you would be bored.