Motion Picture Soundtrack and Orgasms

I havn't quite figured what life is really all about yet, and nor do I ever expect to, but I have been thinking a lot about it lately. We spend 9 months of our life floating around in our mothers womb. We get nurtured by our parents, if we are lucky, and eventually begin grade school. We make friends, go to highschool, and then graduate. After highschool, life begins for real. You go to school get a career, maybe fall in love, have kids, buy a house. You hit old age, and eventually pass on.

It is really hard for me to put my thoughts into words, but I have been getting the feeling that life is short, and I have been thinking a lot about death. Death scares me, but not because of religious or spiritual reasons. I have always been comfortable with that, but if you think about it, you spend your entire life developing relationships with your parents, with your friends, with a spouse, and eventually children. You become these relationships, and then suddenly you just have to say goodbye to them not knowing if you will see them ever again.

I strongly believe that we are put on this earth to make connections and relationships with people. We are put on earth to love, and to laugh. My Gramma was just diagnosed with leukemia. We all cried when we heard the news, and then we all put on strong faces, including my Gramma. I am convinced that these challanges are put in front of people and families for a reason. We have a long way to go, but what is important is that we are all in it together, and I know we'll push through.

On that note, I want to leave you with two things. A song and a paragraph.

The song is Motion Picture Soundtrack by Radiohead (of course). It is a beautiful song. Listen to the moment of silence at the end of the song, and then imagine the gates of heaven opening up when the music kicks in at the end again.

And this:

The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. I mean, life is tough. It takes up a lot of your time. What do you get at the end of it? Death. What's that, a bonus? I think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first, get it out of the way. Then you live in an old age home. You get kicked out when you're too young, you get a gold watch, you go to work. You work forty years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You do drugs, alcohol, you party, you get ready for high school. You go to grade school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities, you become a little baby, you go back into the womb, you spend your last nine months floating ... and you finish off as an orgasm.