A Little About Shaw

Shaw Cable has been a great place to work so far. I work 8-4:30 so it doesn't conflict with any gigs. I get awesome benefits, get paid well, and work in an office where I can listen to music. The women I share the office with are fun, even when they are in a cranky mood. Another great perk of the job is I get to hang out with my Aunty Hez a lot during breaks. I was expecting this place to be a great gig, and of course all of my expectations have been met so far. There is, however, one thing that I was not expecting at all.

Keith has worked with my Aunty Hez for the past three years. His desk is right next to hers, so when they aren't working they visit. They also take their breaks together, which means when I meet my Aunt for break, I also am meeting Keith. We have lots of fun during breaks, joking around, chatting about this and that, and to tell you the truth, my Aunt and I do most of the talking. Keith is pretty quiet, but a very nice person, and pretty funny too and I started to develop a little crush on him... which I was not going to mention to ANYONE. This was going to my little secret crush (Along with Heath Ledger, Ryan Adams, Joel Plaskett, James Bond, etc).

I started to get this feeling that he kind of liked me too. He is really quiet around me, blushes easily if we bug him about something, and he looks at me "that way" sometimes. He just seems so much more shy when I am around than he usually would be. I really thought that this was just my imagination though, and figured I should just ignore it. He is actually 27 years old, and I just figured that a 27 year old who keeps to himself a lot of the time wouldn't be into a younger, more outgoing person like myself.

While all of this inner turmoil of "keith keith keith" is going on in my head, my Aunt notices that she thinks Keith likes me. She tells my mother. My mother tells my Dad, my Dad, somewhere along the line tells my brother. We all go to a family gathering last weekend and everytime I mentioned Keith everyone would smile at eachother and laugh. I mentioned him a lot, apparently, and my family kind of got the feeling I liked him too. I have no idea that any of this is going on.

Later in the week my Dad asks me if I like a guy from work. I deny it, naturally. Then, a few days later, my brother brings it up, so I have a feeling something is going on, and I ask my Mom. She tells me what Aunty Hez told her about how she has a feeling Keith likes me. She also tells me Keith just got out of a relationship with an older woman who is 34 and has two kids. My Aunt also told my Mom that Keith needs to be in a relationship with a younger person, and that he shouldn't be putting kids to bed at his age. I tell my parents that, yes, I do like Keith a little. I also wonder if I should talk to my Aunt about this by myself.

So, tonight I talked to her about Keith. And she tells me that Keith told her that he was talking to his ex again. I guess she also advised him not to get back into a relationship with her, and that her opinion had nothing to do with me. She did say though that she thought Keith liked me. I told her I had the feeling too, or that he just acts different around me because he thinks I'm wierd, which could be true. I am pretty talkative, and wierd. My Aunt reassured me though that it wasn't that.

I am a little confused, though. I was actually kind of excited about it, not because I knew I would date him, but I thought that something might happen. He is a great guy. Nerdy. I dreamt about him all last night too. I can't get him out of my head, and I was really disapointed to hear that he was talking to his ex again. But who knows what Monday will bring. This isn't going to effect my mood, and its not going to make me act wierd around him. I just will be myself, because that is all I can be. A crush is just a crush, and it can be disapointing sometimes, but I am not going to let it effect a friendship.

Above all, in any situation, you just need to remember that everything happens for a reason.