I havn't updated on anything since the weekend because I am slightly confused about, well, everything. Everything always seems to happen all in one big mess and now its a matter of deciding what I need, rather than what I want. There is definatley a big difference and it is very hard to separate the two. Like tonight for instance- I want to post something on my blog right now. I need to sleep because I work at 8 am. The two can get very co-dependant.

Anyway, the weekend was interesting. I was thinking about the cute boy I work with a lot, and not thinking about two much else. I showed up for my Lydia's gig on Sunday night and it ended up setting the tone for the rest of my week.

Firstly, the creepy guy who just about chased me from Starbucks on Broadway saying I need to play music "only for him and just for him why can't you give me ten minutes" and other creepy things showed up to Lydia's. He was telling Gillian he is in love with me. He asked me about four times. Because of him I have had bad dreams about him all week. He really freaks me out because he seems like the type of person that would do something scary. Anyway, the band knows about it and definatley wouldn't put me in a situation where I was at risk, and I'm definatley watching my own back. He's really sketchy though, and he said he would show up this Sunday. I really hope he forgets.

Secondly, Tim shows up AGAIN to my gig, and long story short, we end up talking things out a little bit. He told me he likes me. I don't remember too much else though, Sunday ended up being kind of a blur. Anyway, he took me out on a lovely little date on Tuesday, and now hes gone for a week. I like him, but I'm not sure he can give me what I need. There are a lot of "wants" he can fulfill, but hes pretty immature. I think he thinks we are dating now, and I'm having a hard time thinking of it in that way. The relationships with Tim in the past have not really even been a relationship. We would both get really busy, and then I wouldn't talk to him in awhile. The end. Of course, there are a lot of other issues floating in my head about this one but that would require a new post.

Thirdly, my friend Jake spins records for us on Sunday's in between our setbreaks and before and after we play and through this hes become friends with everyone in the band. We even played at his convocation party. He is so knowledgable about music, and hes an artist. Super smart, and just a neat person in general. He is also 30, and leaving for Tiawan (or Thialand... who knows?!) in July, and he asked me out on Sunday. I was super suprised by this, and I thought about it really quickly and what a great idea. Seriously, Jake is a wonderful person and we get along. It just seemed like a really good idea, except hes leaving. He followed through too. He just called tonight and asked if I wanted to go garage "sailing" on Saturday. How cool is that!? Super cool. I'm gone though. And confused about all of this garbage.

And then theres cute boy from work. I havn't seem him a lot this week. Today he seemed really sad and kind of just not himself, and my Aunt noticed it too. I think it probably has to do with his ex and her kids. Confusing. Not wanting to deal with that any longer.

This is such garbage, I'm sure you guys don't even care. I don't even think I do really. I mean I do, but my blog has turned into such a "diary" of some sorts to me. It has completley replaced my journals that I have kept since I was in grade six. This is the reason why I get so indepth with personal things. I apologize if you don't care, and I'm also sorry if you are going end up judging me about the things I put on here. We all do that, some just do it more than others, some are just in denial, and then some people just don't care.

Speaking of wants and needs, I definatley need to get some sleep because I'm wanting to get ranty and bitchy. Watch out!

Anyway, I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. I am definatley hittin' up the lake with my counter part, Sarah. Hopefully we have nice weather, and hopefully I will have a little clarity about all of this garbage when I come home.

Oh, and fyi: The other night Brett and I covered Graham's room in sticky notes. 84000 to be exact. He hasn't seen it yet, he comes home tomorrow. It's pretty halarious.

What isn't halarious though is that I'm going to get slammmmed this weekend pretty badly I think. I am not home all weekend, and the boys have the house to themself. I will let you know if anything happens. Fingers crossed it doesn't, but I will definatley keep you posted.

Cheers

song of the day- Take Me Home- Holly Cole