It seems as this weather has managed to bring everyone down lately. "Weather" it gives you a cranky mood, bad attitude, lack of motivation, or in some odd reported cases, makes you cheery, the rain and gloomy weather seems to have an effect on everyone. Don't get me wrong, I love the rain. It makes everything fresh and it will make the dust go away, but it definatley puts me in a wierd mood.
Tonight was the first time I have come home to my new place and felt like it wasn't really "home". It may have been because I was returning from my three hour tv marathon with my parents, or maybe the fact that my downstairs neighbor was difficult today, but it just didn't seem like home. I was sad when I left my parents tonight. Sad that I wasn't going up to my room to wake up to my puppy crawling in bed with me. Sad that I couldn't hug and kiss my parents good night and tell them I loved them right before bed. And I was a little sad when I unlocked the door and came home to an empty house. But maybe its just the rain.
I should feel happy right now. Things are all falling into place. I moved out, I finally secured a job with Shaw, and I'm making a bunch of money on the side doing exactly what i love: selling drugs.
Just kidding. I meant music.
I guess I just feel blah. But the four pieces of pizza I ate tonight might be contributing to that. And the beer I had with it. And the onion rings.
Shit. No wonder I am not feelin' so hot. That is a lot of junk food. Now all I am thinking about is what I ate for supper. And dessert... three double chocolate cookies. Hmmm cooookies... Shit. I mean dammit! Now instead of feeling "blah", I feel guilty for eating my weight in grease. Everytime I burp now its going to taste like onion rings. Fantastic.
Anyway, I'm sure this is exactly what you wanted to read on this rainy, damp eve. I hope that instead of the general unpleasant moods the rain can bring (ie: crank face syndrome, eating yourself to death), it will instead bring renewal and refreshment.
"Strive to be happy"
Song of the day: Heart of Gold- Neil Young
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