It has to be done. It is not going to pleasant and it definatley won't be pretty. But it needs to be done because today on numerous occasions I heard a song that reminded me of Lucas and it was painful. So I made a playlist. It is called the "Ouch" playlist and it contains all of the songs that remind me of him in some way or another. There are 54 songs, which is not a lot at all, considering I could have included entire albums.
Now one might ask the obvious question. Why would someone want to inflict this pain and torture on themself?
Well, as all of you know, I am a very musical being. Everyday there is a new soundtrack to my life. The songs of "Ouch" are all ones that I love dearly, and Luke and I just ended up making memories to them. And there are so many memories and we listened to so much music together. I need to do this because facing the pain is crucial. I don't need to be dealing with this three months later when I hear a song that reminds me of him. I need to get this out of the way when the emotions are still fresh. I have always been a person that likes to deal with things head-on. So this is it. Musical-break-up-therapy.
It is quite an interesting little adventure I have got myself into. All of the songs have different memories, and some of them are way harder to listen to than others. Jason Collett reminds me of playing chess and drinking red wine together. This certain Feist song reminds me of the beginning of our relatioinship when we were both so crazy about eachother and I made him listen to the song over and over in my van. And Jeff Buckley reminds me of the end.
The end... its hard to believe its over.
So, if you will excuse me, I have a date with misery... but just for tonight.
Song of the Day: A few of the "Ouch" list favorites of course!
It Won't Be Long- Jason Collett
The Mast- Feist
You Came Along- Joel Plaskett Emergency
Forget Her- Jeff Buckley
To Be Along With You- Sufjan Stevens
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